Elder Gardner has come to terms with his sexuality and desires, finding comfort in the presence and service of the handsome, older men of the Order. He knows that they love him completely and want to see him fulfill his calling. Still, he's conflicted by his strict upbringing, feeling a great sense of guilt about his arousal. The only time he is truly at ease is when he's being fucked hard by his superiors, desperate to make them happy and be the submissive missionary they trained him to be.